A Contribution to the Positive

This is a "How I'm Feeling" Type Post

Lately I seem to be surrounded by lots of negative sentiments, either self-indulgent blather, truly heartbreaking, or just plain whining. The interesting thing about social internet connections, blogging, twitter, facebook and the like, is that we now have a much larger connection with people. Some we know well and see often, some we used to know and don't see, and other we don't know at all. When I first started blogging and facebooking, I thought it was a terrific way to connect with new people and stay in touch with others. Suddenly, a lot of what I'm reading has been weighing on me. It seems like everywhere I turn people are complaining about how little they have, or how much Monday's suck at the job they can't stand, or how one's life is in shambles for one reason or another. I am just tired of reading about other peoples self pity, and I'll admit, I have contributed to it too, but just now I realize how silly (and entirely American) it is to constantly complain about how bad life is and to ask people you hardly know (or never see) to take pity on you. It just all seems so darned privileged, and honestly quite boring. So unless you have some good news, or something truly funny to share I won't indulge you.

I have lots of stuff swimming around in this head of mine. Diapering, working, sleep, blogging, reading, parenting, feminism, money, job, overall satisfaction and enjoyment of life.
I could write a single blog post about each one and probably link it to larger social issues, that is just how my mind works. But, for the time being, I am going to give my sleep deprived brain a rest, curl up with a book I'm into and just chill out. But, I wanted to let my blogging community know that there is a lot going on in the head of mine and one day I'll write a killer blog post about it. But for now, I just need some down time.
Scratch that I'm going to put Ollie back to sleep.

Over Night Pee Pee Delimma

I'm looking for some good old fashioned mama to mama advice. Oliver is a super overnight wetter. Anybody have good cloth diaper suggestions for overnight. We don't have any leaks, but we've had to change him twice a night over the past week because he doesn't like feeling wet (and I don't blame him, he is SOAKED).

Our method now is two prefold diapers with a cover (Thirsties) or a prefold with two micro terry or hemp inserts ( three cheers to Thirsties, because they keep all leaks out!) We know that Fuzzi Bunz don't work to keep out leaks for us or pocket diapers in general because he wets through the sides near his hips (this kid seriously wets). Our issue is keeping the pee in, while having Oliver feel somewhat dry. Is this even possible? I'm okay with one diaper change a night, but two is pushing my night time craziness to the limit. Any thoughts/experiences on wool longies or wool covers?

Transitioning

I have a job. I work outside of the house now for 12 hours a week at a local non profit organization. Some days I can bring Oliver, which is great, but I want to keep it to at least once a week for just a few hours that he is with me. I have to admit, I like the time away.

Today was a whirlwind morning; up early (stupid time change), cranky, dreary, running around doing what feels like a million things, yet get nothing done type morning. I knew I was leaving a tired, cranky baby with my mother in law, but I was happy to go and sit on a bus for a half and hour and mindlessly knit with out having to keep one eye out for anyone. About half way though the day I suddenly felt so sad and missed Ollie so much. I found myself rushing to get home and see my little guy, who I had a feeling was holding it together to see me too. This week is going to be difficult, Oliver is going to be away from me for three days, the most he's been away from me ever. This shift is good for both of us, but I have a feeling the transition is going to be a little rocky.

{This Moment}

A Friday ritual started by SouleMama. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember.

Today I did a plethora of amazing things.
I read about ten pages of my book, completely uninterrupted.
I road a bus, alone, where I was able to read said book uninterrupted*
I went to work, a temporary part time position, for the first time in 10 months. It went perfectly.
I knit and watched two WHOLE episodes of Bones on DVD.
I am sitting here posting a blog.
I find it fascinating all of the things I used to take for granted before I had a baby. Now I find myself daydreaming about having the house to myself, or better yet my BED to myself for 8 uninterrupted hours of sleep when I used to fantasize the perfect beach house and extended vacation time.

*the last time I took a bus was in May 2009 when I had a tiny little Ollie embryo riding along with me.