I had been feeling a little blah the past few weeks. I've slowly started up job searching for full time work and I wasn't really feeling all that enthusiastic about it. This time it's a little different. Previously I was not ready to be away from Oliver, but recently I have been overly concerned (read: worried) that what I do for 40 hours a week feels authentic and true to me. So, not only do I need a job that provides heath insurance and a decent salary, but I want to feel rewarded too. If you asked me earlier in the week I would had said this was nearly impossible, it wasn't going to happen and I would be destined to be miserable in my career forever. But now, it feels possible. I am hopeful. This rejuvenation has come from the non-profit work I have been doing for a local organization MotherWoman. I was at a board meeting and it just felt wonderful. Great women - doing amazing work, which is not always easy, and having fun doing it. I know it might sound funny; a board meeting that rejuvenated my spirit, that helped me turn my negativity around and feel connected to others?! This just speaks to how great MotherWoman really is. It also reminded me that I can be satisfied in my professional life, and that maybe instead of finding the "perfect" job, I need to change my mindset and find satisfaction in all that I do. And if I have trouble finding this blanket satisfaction, then I always have MotherWoman to help me get back on the right path.
Hi I am Jessica Montalino (a pseudonym last name). I live with my partner Ron, our son Oliver, and the handsome feline Marvin. I am a wild toddler wrangler, cloth diaper washer, and the occasional adjunct teacher of social work. You could call this a plain old Mama Blog. I see it as a collection of kid photos, daily on-goings, and observations about gender, birth, and anything else that strikes my fancy. Enjoy and thanks for visiting!